Lady Gaga may have had an incredibly busy 2013, but it wasn’t necessarily a good one.
In a new interview with Harper’s Bazaar, the ArtPop singer reveals she felt “depressed” and “cynical” last year.
“I just didn’t feel like fighting anymore. I didn’t feel like standing up for myself one more time—to one more person who lied to me,” says Gaga, who explains that the new year prompted her to start fresh. “But January 1, I woke up, started crying again, and I looked in the mirror and said, ‘I know you don’t want to fight. I know you think you can’t, but you’ve done this before. I know it hurts, but you won’t survive this depression.’ I really felt like I was dying—my light completely out. I said to myself, ‘Whatever is left in there, even just one light molecule, you will find it and make it multiply. You have to for you. You have to for your music. You have to for your fans and your family.’ Depression doesn’t take away your talents—it just makes them harder to find.”
The root of her discontent? Gaga says she felt taken advantage of by people she trusted. “I asked my mother, “I work so hard. I never stop. I never say no. Why doesn’t this person love me, Mom? Why was this person willing to hurt me to help themselves? Why wasn’t I enough? Why is money more important than me?”
Okay, so she didn’t reveal any intimate details or anything but we’d say that “my” is pretty telling…no?
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