Camila Cabello is finally giving fans what they’ve been waiting for: a release date for the first song off her upcoming solo album!
Since Cambello’s departure from Fifth Harmony in December, fans have been eagerly anticipating new, solo music from the singer. Now, Cabello has revealed that the she has been working on a solo album, titled The Hurting, The Healing, The Loving, and the first single will be available this week.
The single is called, “I Have Questions,” and it comes out on May 19th (this Friday!). According to Cabello, the song is incredibly personal.
“[The album] is the story of my journey from darkness into light, from a time when I was lost to a time when I found myself again. The story behind the album starts with the second song that you’ll hear called ‘I have questions,’ which I started writing in a hotel bathroom on tour a little over a year ago,” Cabello wrote about the upcoming album. “I was completely broken during that time, I was in the kind of pain that’s uncomfortable to talk about, and it was the kind of chapter you never want to read out loud.”
This story was hard to tell, so much so that writing it made her pause everything else music related in her life.
“I couldn’t write another song for 6 months because writing meant I had to feel everything, and I wasn’t ready to do that yet. So, when I graduated from hotel bathrooms to studios to make my first album, I was making music about everything BUT what I was going through, it was like a secret burning on my tongue and for some reason I could not get myself to say it til one day I just could not run anymore,” she explained.
The the 20-year-old singer said she dug down deep and finally sang about what she was truly feeling.
“I pulled up the lyrics from the year before, and ‘I have questions’ was written. After that I wrote a sad song everyday, everything I wanted to say, every lyric on my phone, I said everything until I got tired of writing about it. Until I was sick of the sad songs!!!!!” she admitted. “As I got happier and happier, I realized the songs were getting happier and happier. and I realized I wasn’t making music just to make an album anymore, I was making this music to heal.”
Cabello said her musical journey was almost like a healing process for her, and that she expresses that on the album.
“It wasn’t until I had made enough songs to listen back to and realized I could hear myself coming back through these songs. I didn’t write it with the intention of delivering a message, but I realized the message was in the hurting, the healing, and the loving,” Cabello continued. “I might have thought the hurting was my enemy before, but she became the best listener… I might have thought I was too impatient for the healing, and it did feel like sometimes she was taking forever, but I realized it made me appreciate her so much more when she arrived. And the loving, I wouldn’t have known how beautiful she was if I couldn’t miss her all that time.”
The Cuba native concluded by thanking everyone for hearing her out and going through this journey with her, including her emotions, because clearly they’ve made her stronger.
“To the hurting, thank you for teaching me that even if at night you take me into the deepest depths of the ocean, I will still wake in the morning. To the healing, thank you for the tears, when they finally came, they tasted like God. To the loving, you are even more beautiful than I remember,” she concluded.
Judging from Cabello’s message, listening to the first single — let alone the whole record — will be quite the emotional experience for fans. We, however, are definitely ready for to jump ob board this emotional (musical) rollercoaster.
Camilla Cabello’s first single, “I Have Questions,” drops on May 19, 2017.
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